I have decided. by removing all the feelings and fears during this time. I dared to say “goodbye” to you. I know this is all against me. but I have to! I have to get up and try to organize my life because there is no hope for us.

you loves her more than you love me. and now you can with him again. know when you come back to him, for a moment I could not breathe, the air around me suddenly disappeared. when realized I did not know what I feel.

very sick! that I could not cry even though I wanted to. I want to be angry but be angry at anyone? and wanted to scream whenever I can not, I do not have the energy. maybe this is it. 3 years passed with pain and tears there is also hope.
and I chose to … .
give up…

monday 6th february 2012 09:00pm